Time

Where has the time gone? It is the middle of summer - little BC is almost four months old - my Heroic Husband and I have been living in SET for six months - I still have not put up the baby mobile - it has been months since I last sat down to write a blog. Where has the time gone?!

 

This morning, at our 2:30am feeding - no, BC does not sleep through the night yet, but I will take one middle of the night feeding over four - I read in my Bible Study:

"It is good in the morning to fix upon work for the day, with submission to Providence, for we know not what a day may bring forth." - Matthew Henry

This is very applicable to my life right now.

Yesterday, HH asked me to do a few things for him while he was at work. I told him that I would do them, and I would try to have them completed by lunch, but could not make any promises. My days cannot be planned completely down to a "T."

I love being an at-home mom, and my day revolves around just that - being a mom. BC has changed so much in the last few months! I admit, although I cherished the early days, I am glad the colicky days are behind us. I usually get to brush my teeth before lunch now : ) But BC still has fussy days. He is a very happy baby 90% of the time - but we do have that rather unhappy 10% too. We have days, like today, where all BC wants to do is sleep. We also have days like yesterday, where BC goes the entire day refusing to take a nap, unless he is on my lap.

I love to make lists and have a schedule. Yes, I was "that kid" who had a schedule to follow at my birthday parties. Often, I get pretty upset when my day deviates from my schedule. God has really been breaking me of this since BC was born. I just cannot physically stick to my lists. HH, BC, and I would all be miserable.

I wrote a while back about my plan to get one chore a day completed. That is still my goal. Some days, that chore is simply getting all the dishes washed before HH comes home from work. Other days, I get multiple chores done.

Lots of people have asked why I do not "go out" very often without BC (I have only left him three times in the last four months). Well, for one thing, as a nursing mom, someone is calling for me every two hours : ) But even more so, I love being BC's mom. I love being with him. I love being able to (or at least trying to) meet his needs. I am sure I could "make time" to go out, but I really do not want to. HH and I love spending our time as a family unit. We love to go to a nearby park and run together. We love to go grocery shopping together. We love to cuddle up on the couch and watch a movie together.  Do I need "a break" sometimes? Sure. But I do not need a break from being BC's mom. My "breaks" consist of baby play-mat time, while I exercise nearby. Nap times, when I get to run around and do as many things as I possibly can, are also great breaks. Listening to BC "tell" HH all about his day while I whip up some dinner, is probably my favorite break.

God gave me the amazing job of being BC's mom. And I will only be the mom of a little infant for a few months. I intend on cherishing all my time with him.